My Old Stories

Hi world, i’m back.

Back to reality, back to life, back to routine, back to square one.

Yes, i’m back from the long awaited Taiwan trip. It was fun and nothing beats having a holiday right? Or rather, everything beats the routine of a working life. At the very least, while you’re away, you see and try new things, have new experiences, do silly things and meet new people. And i’ve come to realize that, it doesn’t exactly feel good to travel alone. Especially so when you went with a big bunch of people and on the exact same journey back, you’re alone. Hope i won’t have to do this again. Well, just being a little emo here but i guess that’s cos’ tomorrow is Monday.

Having addressed being back and feeling blue, i shall move on to being black. Yes, i’m back to being black (it’s my skin tone i’m referring to). It’s been a long time since i’m really dark.. perhaps about 3 years? Even i myself can’t get used to this skin tone. I’m so dark now cos’ we played water sports in Penghu. The beach was.. normal, with really salty seawater. But it was nonethelesss fun. And i absolutely love the fireworks in Penghu. Despite the chilling wind, it was worth it.  We managed to rent two cute scooters there and i got to ride it and it was uber fun. Totally enjoyed the experience and i even bought a red mini scooter at the airport. Since i can’t have a real one, a mini one is better than nothing right.

That’s all for now. Shall update more about the trip the nex time round when i feel like blogging. Hopefully i’ll upload some pictures as well. Till then, ciao!

Hmm… …

Name: Jan
Date: 4/10/2009
Colorgenics Number: 15342076

You have always longed for tenderness, love and a sensitivity of feeling into which you would like to blend. You are a very gentle warm person and responsive to ‘All things bright and beautiful’. This personifies a caring person, a person who ‘needs’ and indeed ‘needs to be needed’.

You are a true extrovert, frivolous and outgoing. You need to feel in control of any situation. If matters are not proceeding according to plan you tend to get extremely irritable and perhaps become difficult to live with.

You lack confidence and that is a great pity because deep down you are indeed a warm caring person. This lack of confidence is making you wary of being drawn into any open discussion or conflict and so you feel as if you should let matters lie and leave well alone. But there may be a pleasant surprise in store for you. You are beginning to grow and very soon - sooner than you believed possible - this warm loving new you will be available for all to see and to appreciate.

You are an emotional, sincere and impressionable individual experiencing frustration and unnecessary stress. You vehemently resist any form of pressure from outside sources, insisting on your independence as an individual. You want to be a decision maker - to make up your own mind without interference. You wish to be able to draw your own conclusions and arrive at your own decisions. You detest uniformity and mediocrity as you want to be regarded as one who gives authoritative opinions. Your favourite expression could well be that ‘I may not always be right but I am never wrong’. You’re a perfectionist and even though you may feel that the other person’s point of view may be right, you find it extremely difficult to admit that you could be wrong.

You would like to be respected and valued for yourself and this can only be achieved from within a close and harmonious relationship.

Two and a half weeks into work.. hmm.. I guess it’s still fine so far. Except for an issue which some of you might already know. Wells.. just gotto get used to it.. isnt it? After so many years of waiting, finally tried paintball for the very first time. The first company event that I ever attended. It was fun! It’s definitely suitable for people who enjoy war-like games! But of course, you must not be afraid of pain. As the saying goes.. there’s a price to pay for.. I would say, many things in life. And it applies to having fun as well. haha. And of course, it’s not exactly a cheap activity to indulge in. Take a look at the price that was paid for having fun…

Yea.. so when people say you’ll get bruises, they MEAN it. And thus for those of you who arent that okay with bruises.. seriously, THINK TWICE. haha.

Just something random.. I realized that Class95, has become the old 98.7 that I was famaliar with. Especially the segment - Music of the 90s.. woo.. just love it! The good old days. Oh manz.. sign of old age.

I’ll soon be embarking on a new journey in life and frankly speaking, I’m seriously, so freaking out. I’m terrified of leaving behind my old life, terrified of the unknown. I believe I’m undergoing, what I’d like to call, a ‘post-school-life-phobia’ aka ‘pre-work-phobia’ aka ‘deprivation-of-own-time-phobia’. Well.. … … well… … there’s nothing much I can think of besides the word ‘FEAR’. I’ve been counting down since last tues and with fewer days left, the word turned from ’fear’ to ‘FEAR’ to ‘FEAR‘. Of course it’s still spelt the exact same way, but I do hope you understand what I mean. My apology that I’m appearing to be such a wimp, BUT I truely cannot help but feel this way.

Petrified.     

It’s been years.. many years.. since I was last entitled to celebrate Children’s Day. I remember we used to get the Sharity Elephant donation envelop as well as gifts with the name of our primary school imprinted on during this joyous occasion. But despite the fact that age has brutally ripped off my rights to celebrate Children’s Day, there’s still another important occasion that falls on the same day and that’s my mum’s birthday. Thus fortunately, there’ll always be a call for celebration afterall. haha.

Oh well.. with regards to my life.. I would say it’s been rather dull. Yes, I’m still unemployed. SIGH. I’m broke and aimless. I guess my previous post on the lucky date wasn’t of much use to me. Would anyone save me out of this shit?? Help! SOS! But I’d rather not dwell on it as I figured that there’s really nothing much I can do. Except perhaps to cry out loud for help, which I deem would be pretty useless. Oh well.. oh well.. oh well.. OH WELL!

Happy Children’s Day! And more importantly,

Happy Birthday Mummy!!  

As you can see from the date today, it’s made up of three 8s, which is THE auspicious number (888) to Chinese. So I’ve decided to drop a post on this very auspicious date. haha. HUAT AH! But unfortunately, I did not manage to fulfill my dream of becoming a millionair today. Sigh. I guess the luck is not enough to be spread to everyone afterall. Oh wells, never mind, if it’s meant to be, it will be. lol.

 Likewise, the Beijing Olympics has it’s opening set on this very special date as well. Can you image. I was still in J2 when the last Olympics took place. Oh gosh, it seemed like yesterday when I was so into Ronald Susilo. Hahahaha. Since I’m so free now, it saves me the trouble of rushing home from school to catch the games. Excellent.

Go Team Singapore! Go Singapore! It’s National Day tomorrow! I actually forgot there’s such thing as National Day celebration in schools. Faintz. Can if anyone of you can remember, can you answer this question of mine - is the day following National Day usually a public holiday? (I hope it’s not too much of a tongue twister for you)

Happy Birthday Singapore!

Aching fingers.

Why are people afraid of falling down? And why is it so that such fears are difficult to overcome?

I’ve been trying to learn in-line skating these days and while I was doing so just this afternoon, I started to wonder why am I afraid of falling? Personally, I do not think that pain is the reason because, a normal fall usually does not result in such excruciating pain to the extend of infixing a phobia. So, in my search for the answer, something came to my mind. Could the real fear be the fear of feeling vulnerable? From the many falls I had, it dawned upon me that while you are falling, there is a sense of helplessness as you jolly well know that you are in for a big fall, but there is nothing you can do to prevent the occurrence. And with such mentality, there is an inclination towards surrendering to what is to befall.

The same goes for life. In many occasions, people tend to give up before trying with the excuses such as ’I can’t do it/I’m really not suitable for it/etc etc..’ I am personally gulity of such an accusation. To quote from ys, I shall learn to ‘leave behind the fear of failure and mountain of doubts.. and give it a shot’, many shots in my case.  

Taking the first step.

Sometimes I would have the urge to just sit down and to write, or blog in this case, about somethings that just come to the mind. And most of the time it happened when I’m watching Sex & the City. I would very much like to be able to write a column like Carrie Bradshaw, discussing about provocative issues. Not necessarily about sex, but perhaps some somethings in similar capacity.

Just a quick update for now. A month after my last post, nothing changed. I’m still slacking around and jobless. Have no idea how and when I’ll be able to get a job. Oh wells, can only take a step at a time now. Finally I attended convocation, something that I really wasn’t looking forward to, but it turned out to be fine and did not regret going. At least my parents get to see me officially graduate. And yes, I’m no longer an ’undergradute’. I’m graduate! But I need more than that.. I need a job! Please drop a job on me, even if it means squashing me flat. Oh yes, and how could I forgot to mention about my cousin’s wedding (which was a month ago)! It was fantastic! It was fun and all and it did change a tiny weeny bit of my perception about wedding, or rather marriage as a whole. All I can say is that, I’m open to options! hahaha.

I’ll think of a something provocative to discuss the next time round. Ciao!

I’m back! Sorry for MIA for quite sometime. Basically, I was just lazy to blog lah.. haha. And yes, as many of you might have already know, I was having chicken pox for the past two weeks. Can you imagine not stepping out of the house for two weeks?! Luckily it was the school holidays and there was my mum to entertain me. I would have been bored to tears if I was alone at home. And to answer all of you out there.. I seriously have no idea how or where did I get it from. haha. I’m fine and only those on my body have yet to peel off. So I’ve no idea when I’ll be considered fully recover. Maybe I am already, but I’ve no idea. haha. Thanks for all your concern! =D

This post is titled “A New Beginning” because I’m done and over with school, and I’m hoping it’ll be a brand new beginning for me. I want to get over with everything that had happened, and to start afresh! What has happened has happened, no point brooding over split milk. What deserve my attention will be the future, the things that are still within my control (not all though). Yes! I need to believe in this and more importantly to believe in myself! Confidence is the first step to success! Of course not to the extent where complacency sets in. I want to improve myself (be a better person, a more knowledgeable person, etc..), find a job and do the things I’ve been wanting to do. So many things I need to accomplish down the road in life.

 I truely hope and I do believe that it’ll be better ahead! 

I need to and I will learn to believe in all that I have just said.      

Though I’ve not heard of this song before, and thus I’ve no idea what’s the title, but it was a ‘dedication’ from hf to us.. and I thought the lyrcis is really apt. Hope to hear it someday. Here it goes..

穿过人潮双眼灯火栏栅 没有想过回头
一段又一段走不完的旅程 甚麼时候能走完

噢 .. 我的 梦代表甚麼 有时甚麼让我们不安

THAT’S JUST LIFE 寻找梦里的未来
THAT’S JUST LIFE 少点现实的无奈

不论风吹的时候 不在傍徨的时候
永远向前 路一直都在

穿过一块里面一片黑暗 没有想过回头
一段又一段走不完的旅程 甚麼时候能习惯

噢 .. 我的 梦代表甚麼 有时甚麼让我们期盼

THAT’S JUST LIFE 寻找梦里的未来
THAT’S JUST LIFE 少点现实的无奈

不论风吹的时候 不在傍徨的时候
永远向前 路一直都在

看不清的路又算甚麼 看不清的梦又算甚麼
就算走到尽头又能算甚麼 能算甚麼

THAT’S JUST LIFE 寻找梦里的未来
THAT’S JUST LIFE 少点现实的无奈

不论风吹的时候 不在傍徨的时候
永远向前 路一直都在

THAT’S JUST LIFE 徘徊到不再徘徊
THAT’S JUST LIFE 从来到不怕从来

没有选择的时候 无论选择的时候
永远向前 路一直都在

It’s not easy to be at the crossroads of life.